On Leaving Cambodia...

It's been a whole one week since we left Baray, I'm writing this at 7:45am in the morning which is coincedentally the time that we got on the taxi to leave, how spooky. We've been feeling somewhat unsettled over the last week, moving around from place to place. First going to KL, then Singapore for the day, back to KL and then onto KK in Sabah. Now we're in Keningau were Alvin grew up (and grew fat! ha ha).

We've been talking a lot with family and friends about what we got up to in Cambodia, showing them photos and telling them about how different life is over there and what God did during that time. After one particular sharing I just sat there feeling very lost, "it's actually over" I thought to myself. I couldn't quite comprehend it, still can't. Are these those grieving feelings that I'm supposed to be feeling? I miss the people; I miss teaching Caleb random words like robot, shovel truck and turtle; I miss hearing Luca laugh when I throw him in the air and turn him upside down; I miss our chats with the pastors; I miss going to the market and seeing our veg and pork lady; I miss Abraham mixing up banana and coconut and saying conana instead; I miss hanging out with the youth and playing games; I miss riding on the motorbike with Alvin - you know the whole wind in your hair stuff; I miss looking up at the sky at night and seeing a thousand twinkling stars; I miss the kids shouting "teacher!!" at me when we play hangman; I miss a lot. Alvin said he didn't miss the people, just the situation - which I actually think is just a roundabout way of saying he misses everything! He finally confessed last night that he did miss the people, I knew he would.

Everyone asks us if we'll go back, before they've even finished the question I want to shout definitely. Somehow I restrain myself and let Alvin say "yes, we'll go back to visit for sure." So now we're waiting, waiting to go back. We don't know when or for how long we'll go back for or whether God even wants us to, but we're waiting. Waiting for Him to tell us what the next step is.